You will always live in our memories my dear friend

Everyday I wake up

Realizing that you are gone

Reality keeps forcing me

To accept that you are done

Finished with all the chaos

This earthly world can bring

Through with all the pain and problems

And all those simple things

Am I so selfish to wish that you

Were here alive on earth?

Am I wrong to wish you back

Just so I won't hurt?

All the things I never said

Strong feelings I never shared

I took your love for granted and put you off

Because I just knew you would always be there

I pushed you away because I needed space

To be young, live the college life, and grow

But I was gonna get back right with you

I swear, But now you'll never know

I can only wait until the day

That we'll meet again

I know that you will still be you

Funny, crazy, a friend

You were never perfect

You weren't an angel by far

But damn boy you were you

And even before you died

I knew I would never be able

To replace you

Your smile, your eyes

Your laughter, your words

Are embedded in my mind

And forever you'll live in my heart and dreams

Until the end of my life

I still remember the day I met you, still remember the evenings we spent at various cafes gossiping about gals and profs and crushes of our group, still remember the back bencher gang we were a

part of, the orkutting in class, frustrating the teachers with our continuous distraction (and each one at that)

, the evening rides, the reunions, the after school NDA trips, and the unforgettable school canteen masti that we daily had. Frustrating Kundan Sir and Majumdar, and then VP(Yah, Brother Satish a.k.a. Chattis) after that

, they have been and will always be the most cherished memories of my life.

I don’t think I ever told you how important you were to our group, to us and how u changed our lives. You showed us how to live life and how to enjoy it today before it became yesterday. Would miss you and cherish those memories ever. You'd always live in our memories my dear friend. ALWAYS.

Arbit debates.. Not so arbit Conclusions!!!

You may have already guessed that its end sem time now(which is what propels me to write again), so I would make it a short one. Sitting alone in the library, I just came back from the recently opened cultures cafe near the lib discussing arbit(read unrelated to academics, i.e. when exams are as close as 3 days away) things with a friend of mine. During a debate that got invoked out of nowhere, I came on a conclusion that I would like to share with you all. Here it goes:-

"They say that love blinds you completely and that you don't see the reality of things until you start taking off the veil, little by little. Then, you start getting disappointed with things they start doing that hurt more and more... you then realize that it's not that people change... it's that either they were always this way or they simply acted differently around you, trying to show you an image of what you wanted that person to be. Disappointment in the one you love is a horrible feeling as it is equivalent to your heart getting broken by that same person you love so much... it's inevitable. People don't change... you see them for who and what they really are... eventually."

It Hurts Me a Lot

Hi everyone.. I have been working on this poem since quite some time but couldn't finish due to various reasons. Being back to home in holi has given me a lot of time and space to finish it ad so here it is... Please do comment.


It Hurts Me a Lot

I tried, I hinted, I played it cool
but your actions proved me a fool
And I cried for the umpteenth time
that you cannot use me as a tool

All I got were reasons
and not a single smile,
and my broken heart
kept waiting all the while

Still I went with my heart
and of myself, you became a part
and all the while in time
Kept waiting my dear old heart

Are you hurt, innocent she asks
How can I tell her not
when she is my everything
but it hurts me a lot

the pain becomes inbearable
so much, my heart bleeds
and only your presence now
is what it all needs

I wont ever be over you
and a place will remain
special and unconstrained
in my hearts domain

I never can love another
As long as life may stand
No one the wide world over
Shall hold this heart or hand